Most loyal of them all

I'm loyal to my passion
I'm loyal to my dreams
I'm loyal to my childhood
I'm loyal to what it means.
I'm loyal to these feelings
I'm loyal to these thoughts
loyal to my struggling
I'm loyal to my flaws.
I'm loyal to disappointment
loyal to my fears
I'm loyal to running
far from common things.
I'm loyal to my tears
I'm loyal to their walls
I'm loyal to the magic
of the unspoken thoughts.

I'm loyal to forgiveness

I'm loyal to my rage

I'm loyal to my hope

and the need for change.

I'm loyal to my guilt

and a sense of shame

loyal to illusion

of being kind of strange.

I'm loyal to destroying

my own path to sin

and every petty longing

for glorifying thrills.

I'm loyal to forgetting

I'm loyal to tattoos

I'm loyal to denying

I am weak and bruised.

I'm loyal to surviving

in this hyper colored place

I'm loyal to describing

every new phase.

I'm loyal to your secrets

I'm loyal to your words

and if I learned to own it

being loyal wouldn't hurt.

Kandinsky, Sans titre, 1944

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 Things I've learnt so far

• First impression is more often true than we tend to admit
• Body is one of the portals to our soul and a memory keeper
• You will attract people not only by what you need, but by what they need also... 
• When you feel like you might need help, you do. God shows us the path at the right time, but you alone are responsible to take it. 
• if it looks like a duck, swims like a duck, and quacks like a duck, then it is a duck. 
• Most lies people tell are the lies they tell themselves
• Dishonesty and self-righteousness are the main enemies to human relations
• Sometimes people worship animals because animals are the only creatures who can silently tolerate their lack of human compassion 
• Money isn't the key to freedom, class, love, wisdom and doesn't always equal to talent and effort
• You can't buy or sell the living truth
• People and life have been the same from the beginning of the time
• Evil loves to copy the beauty of truth
• Truth always comes to surface and wins
• Nothing can pass without consequence 
• One year is usually the longest period someone can hold on to pretending and fooling others
• Spiritual world is real
• Subconscious patterns recognize each other
• Things happen in spiritual world before they happen here
• There are two ways to living: ego oriented and God oriented. The first one is draining and addictive, the second one is calming and inspiring
• Sometimes your moral duty is to break people's rules
• Dark things hide in dark
• A disease never comes alone
• No obsession is healthy, not even the obsession to stay healthy
• Never underestimate the power of propaganda
• Never trust people based on how confident they are in what they say and believe in
• Never fully trust people, but try to love them
• Love yourself the way you are loved by God
• Humility test is the easiest test for the authenticity of a graceful soul
• Don't force anything
• Don't give too much credit to your current mood, it might change the next second
• People's words and actions are not your responsibility
• Life is pain. Learn to accept the heavy side of life, otherwise you will fall into abyss of self pity and hate
• Gratefulness is love
• Prayer is powerful